Well, looking back at the last post that I had written, I can surely tell you that it was not a real sign. After the dreams and weird coincidences that popped up, it seemed that everything stopped happening along those lines. I am pretty sure I was just living in some weird fantasy world in my head that my teen self would have been honored to see me create. Maybe I am just lonely? Who knows. However, not long after I wrote the last post… the FYP videos and signs stopped. He no longer showed up on my timeline or anything so I am not sure what that was all about. The dreams stopped as well. So, while Prince Charming didn’t come riding in on a white horse like I had hoped, 2021 still had its ups (and downs).
First off, I got my dream job. Now, had to asked me in May 2021 if I would ever work for this company, I would have laughed and said no. My brain couldn’t think of a single way for me to work for this company because it is a gaming company. I have zero programming or 3D modeling knowledge so it wasn’t like I could make the game. I have no idea how people get into Q&A testing so while finding bugs for a video game sounds amazing, I had no idea how that would be relevant to my skill set. But alas… fate decided to shine it’s beautiful golden glow down on me and blessed me with an opportunity… one that I almost didn’t take. I was at a great job doing what I loved and making decent money (not really but better than what I had been in previous jobs.. wait no that isn’t true either… just an easy job) plus I was working from home which was the biggest plus. However, I was shown a job position at this company that I was *perfect* for! It was a social media manager! I could do that! That is what I was doing at my current job! So, I applied… and 5 interviews later… I was hired! It is 100% work from home and it is absolutely perfect. The company actually respects its employees and pays really well. I am SO BLESSED that the Universe granted me this job because I can literally live anywhere in the world and still work this job and that is amazing to me. It was also great that it popped up when it did because my former job decided that it was no longer going to be work from home after 2 years, and that wasn’t something I was willing to give up. Now I don’t have to.
There has been zero movements on the relationship front. No love in 2021 for me. I was supposed to go on a trip and I had invited my good friend to go with me but alas, the panini said no. The guy friend I had invited has been in my life for like 10 years and I did have strong feelings for him at one point so who knows what would have happened if it did work out. Could have moved to a completely new state! But, alas, wasn’t meant to be in 2021. My ex also talked to me quite a bit in 2021 but it’s funny how in 20+ years, he has not changed at all. He never does anything for his own happiness and since he seems to be giving off the vibes of pure misery in his current situation, but refuses to do anything about it, that seems like a waste of life. Hopefully, he finds peace and is able to realize that life is far too short to be unhappy… plus he is preventing his girlfriend from finding someone who DOES want to marry her. Seems pretty selfish to me, but oh well, his life.
Let us hope that 2022 is full of wonderful things, new memories, and hopefully… for my sake… love because I am tired of being single.